Testimonial: 1 – A fear of not being suitable enough to give an answer using scripture unto those who ask a question.


Testimonial 1

One experience I had was. There was a certain degree of fear I had in 2003. The fear was, not being informed enough or adequate enough to give anyone some hope by knowing the scriptures and being able to go right to them in the bible to share them. So…for about six months, I did some major studying. I was studying everything. I mean everything that I could think of according to scriptures in the King James Version, numerous topics and stuff. I wanted to feel secure within myself being amongst anyone, especially amongst those who might ask me a question concerning God, or why is this or why is that. So…after my intense study. I started to question myself, “Are you really ready?” So….I said to myself, “You know what, the Lord will provide for me whatever I need at the time appointed, that I don’t remember or know of.” So..basically, I push and forced myself to just GO. I went to this organization where some truth was being taught, yet there was numerous errors and misunderstanding there as well. I prayed before I went to this place. I was like, “Lord, I don’t desire to feel this way, I want to overcome this certain fear of not being equipped enough with the scriptures. Use me however you want.” Who enjoys being ashamed when they’re put in a position where they can’t produce. From a young age, about 11 yrs old, is when I begin to push myself to do things I was fearful of. Fear is torture, fear is like being box in, no traveling space. I hate that, it stunts us, if we don’t overcome it. So…here we go. I’m sitting at this place of worship, and the end of service is approaching. This was the week that they do their communion(bread and wine). Keep in mind, I understand and keep, “The Passover,” once a year, at the time the Lord designate, and not any other time. I’m not going to participate in this, yet I didn’t want to be a stumbling block either. I didn’t know of numerous scriptures to share with anyone concerning the Passover. If someone asked the reason why I’m not participating, I wanted to be able to let them know why I’m not taking/participating in eating the bread and wine. I only at that time knew about Leviticus 23: 5, and I felt that wasn’t enough. So…right before people were going up to take the bread and wine, I started praying within my mind, I prayed, “Lord, give me two more scriptures concerning the passover or allow me to walk out without being a stumbling block.” So right after I prayed, I opened my bible, and right there in my face was another scripture pertaining to the Passover, I wrote it down, and right after I wrote it down, I flipped the bible one direction and immediately flipped it the other direction and there was another scripture pertaining to the Passover. Keep in mind, I didn’t look at my bible before it was opened and reached for the New Testament section, I just opened it, not knowing whether it was the New or Old Testament. I didn’t think, I just opened it, and there they were. So.. within 3 seconds the Lord gave me 2 scriptures without me knowing where they were. Okay, the Lord gave me two scriptures. Guess what happened next. About 20% of the people stood up to walk out of this place of worship right when they started to call people down to take the bread and wine. So I stood and mingled in with the crowd that walked out. I guess those where people who were visitors such as myself. The Lord gave me both requests. The scriptures, and allowing me not to be a stumbling block. I put myself out there on the line, and the Father filled up the sum, where I was lacking. Ever since that time, he give me scriptures like that all the time. I think of scriptures or someone mentions a scripture or situation pertaining to a scripture I know of and I’ll open up the bible right to it. Glory be to the Most High in the name of Jesus.