This experience happened in 2006. One day I started to feel bad. I eventually became real sick that day. I fever came upon me. I felt nauseated. I felt weak and my bones was aching. I started to loose just about all my strength, I could barely walk. I’ve never felt this sick. I don’t know about you, but have you ever been sick, and just about everything that you ate or drank, you’ve thrown up, feeling nausea? I wasn’t throwing up when I was sick, but I wanted to. So..this is what I thought to do. Maybe, if I drank a cold glass of water, it will help me throw up. In my mind, I thought I’ll feel better if I threw up. So I went to the refrigerator and poured a tall glass of cold water. Next, I went to my bathroom and sat on the floor with the cold glass of water. I was so out of it, I just sat there for a while with the cold glass of water beside me on the floor while leaning up against the toilet. I guess I was in and out, dosing off. While sitting there, I accidentally knocked over the glass of water unknowingly. I don’t know if I went through my series of prayers or not, but I was praying to God. I had never thought I would say this, but I felt so…bad, that I mentioned to God that, “I would rather die now, right here, than go on feeling like this, I believe you can heal me, I refuse to go to the doctor.” I’ve heard about people being in the hospital, dealing with illnesses, dealing with pain and just feeling terrible, and wanting to die. Right then and there, I was at that point. I didn’t have no desire to live and having to feel like that. It’s either God was gonna heal me, or I didn’t mind dying, I wasn’t going to any hospital. I’m not afraid of hospitals, I just rather rely on the creator. He created me, he knows my body better than any physician that has ever been born. God knew I was sincere, and had faith in him, and he’s the reason why I am able to share this with you all today. Okay, back to the story. I’m leaning against the toilet, and I’ve knocked the glass of cold water over unknowingly. For some reason, I stood up, and step in the spilled water, and one of my socks was fully soaked. In my mind, I was saying, “Ahh…man, I done spilled the water and stepped in it.” Skip it, I was so out of it, I left the sock on and stumbled backed to my bedroom, and laid across the middle of my bed with my legs hanging off the side of the bed. I laid there and eventually went to sleep for about 3 or 4 hours. After sleeping, I woke up, and I was healed, like it never happen. Everything I mentioned, feeling nauseated, having a fever, and body aching was gone completely. Glory be to the Father in the name of Jesus.
I don’t promote, “Don’t go to the Hospital,” when you’re sick, suit yourself. Check these scriptures out:
Mark 5:25-34
25. And a certain woman, which had an issue of blood twelve years,
26. And had suffered many things of many physicians, and had spent all that she had, and was nothing bettered, but rather grew worse,
((This woman spent all her money in hope to be recovered by the knowledge and hands of those physicians, yet her issue or affliction worsen. Ahh…man, that’s bad. Let’s continue.))
27. When she had heard of Jesus, came in the press behind, and touched his garment.
28. For she said, If I may touch but his clothes, I shall be whole.
((Okay, this woman heard of Jesus. Pay close… attention to what she said within herself, “If I may touch but his clothes, I shall be whole.” In her mind, her faith was so… strong that she believed that she could be healed without touching his hand(any part of his physical body), without being anointed, without having Jesus speak any words to her.
29. And straightway the fountain of her blood was dried up; and she felt in her body that she was healed of that plague.
((Sisters and brothers this is the latitude that we have, we in our own mind can decide how or what we want to be healed by as well. Basically she sincerely believed and said within herself, “I believe I can be healed by touching his cloths.” She could have said, “If I touch his sandal, even if he wasn’t wearing it.” What I’m talking about is.., for instance, if I’m sick(cancer, fever, flu, ect.) and I want to be healed, and I say within myself, “This cup of water that I’m gonna get from the kitchen, bathroom, lake, river, ect. will heal me, and I believe without any doubt and drink it. I will be healed. This is how is. This is how I operate. This is what I know. This is what I read. This is what I believe. Let’s continue.))
30. And Jesus, immediately knowing in himself that virtue had gone out of him, turned him about in the press, and said, Who touched my clothes?
((He didn’t even know who touched him. Look at what went out of him, virtue. Sisters and Brothers, women aren’t the only one’s who can be virtuous. Jesus, the Christ, our Master was virtuous. So..us men, can and should be virtuous too.))
Virtue define- Moral excellence and righteousness; goodness. A particular efficacious or beneficial quality; advantage. Effective force or power to produce a definite result. Definite meaning- clearly defined, precise, final, conclusive, authoritative and complete. To specify distinctly; fix definitely. Wasn’t that woman healed of her plague definitely. Virtue also means, chaste. Chaste- morally pure, modest, and decent. We all are tainted, yet we should seek pureness. 2 Timothy 2:22 Flee also youthful lusts: but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace, with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart. 1 Peter 1:22 Seeing ye have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the Spirit unto unfeigned love of the brethren, see that ye love one another with a pure heart fervently: Let’s continue.
31. And his disciples said unto him, Thou seest the multitude thronging thee, and sayest thou, Who touched me?
32. And he looked round about to see her that had done this thing.
33. But the woman fearing and trembling, knowing what was done in her, came and fell down before him, and told him all the truth.
34. And he said unto her, Daughter, thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace, and be whole of thy plague.
((Her faith made her whole, not Jesus faith. He(Jesus) already believe he can do, but do we believe. She believed so strong that, that all she had to do was just touch part of his cloths, not to be push in her forehead(falling out kicking on the floor, not a 2 hour prayer, not even being anointed on the head. I’m not speaking against anointing, the bible supports that. I’m not speaking against prayer, the bible supports that. Sometimes, or anytime, it is possible to be healed or answered out of urgency. When I say urgency- I mean out of necessity, not having time to go through certain prayers or certain things that you do in preparation before asking God for something.))
Speaking for myself, I’ve gotten to the point, if God don’t want me to live, who else can sustain me.
There’s only so much man can do, especially without God. A lot of the times, it’s a gamble with mankind. It’s not a gamble with God the Father, it’s either he’s gonna deliver me or not. If it’s his will to heal me, I will not have any side effects, a perfect deliverance. You know and hear it all over the TV. For instance, “This pill is gonna cure you, but be mindful.., that you might suffer lost of vision, headaches, high blood pressure, diarrhea, inflammation of the heart, impotence, etc., the list goes on and on.” Hold up, wait a minute. I’m looking to be healed of one thing and you tell.. me, I’m liable of inheriting all of this stuff, if I take this one pill. Skip it, I’ll rather suffer one illness, and/or wait to be healed from that illness, than to take upon 7 others along with the one that I currently have. If I take that pill, now I have 8 problems, including the one I had previously. Now I’m looking for more medicine or pills to counter attack these other problems. Now I’m taking 8, 10, 12, pills, which are destroying my whole immune system, liver, and there’s no telling what else, because I’d rather put all my trust in man, and not God. It looks like man is trying to kill me before my time, and while he’s killing me, his aim is to get as much money out of me as he can, digging deep into my pockets until there’s nothing left. Now, I’m worst off than before I started. I’m not only broke, but sicker. Again, I say, skip it, I’ll rely on God the Father in the name of Jesus.
About 95% of the time I’ve acted out of necessity, and that’s why the Lord has heard me 95% of time. It’s all boils down to time(observation) and judgement(execution). Observation covers- observing and being honest with yourself, that’s the only way you’ll know when to react, adjust, and change when necessary, plus observing others(watching the patterns of others). Once the observation is covered at all angles, you can just about hit bullseye every time when executing judgment. The key to reaching 100% or close to 100% in observation is only obtainable by seeking and living righteously. There’s no other way. What is righteousness? Righteousness is keeping the Father’s laws, statues, commandments, and judgements, Feast Days, and fruit of the spirit, and not preferring one over the other, but accepting all.
Note: Keep in mind; what comes with knowledge, wisdom and understanding is responsibility, especially when we seek to obtain this and still remain a servant of the Most High. It’s a combo deal unto God, not a singular. His knowledge, wisdom, and understanding does not come by itself as far as the good stuff; miracles, knowledge of navigating the bible, knowing how to maneuver in general, yet the knowledge, wisdom, and understanding of what evil consist of will increase too. So…we’ll find ourselves having to watch our steps even more as we increase knowledge, wisdom, and understanding. It takes the fear of God to maintain and not break because of the tremendous amount of evil that exist before our eyes, even the persuasion. You will find some believing, feeling, or thinking you are over-righteous sometimes, but that’s not the case, you just understand more in dept what evil is. Speaking for myself, I don’t impose the magnitude of how much I put into serving God the Father on anyone. We all are giving the freedom to put whatever effort we want into serving God. The biggest question is, “How close do you want to be connected to God the Father and God the Son(Jesus). Be it known.., these two individuals are very particular who they allow to get close to them. Food for thought: What was the main reason that moved God to cast Adam out from the garden of Eden? Ref. Isaiah 59: 1-10. People use the Quote: “I’m doing me, I’m gone do me.” I’m thinking, “Go ahead.” In my mind, I’m saying, “This is what I’m gone do, whether people believe I’m over-righteous or not, it don’t matter to me.” What matter is: Am I being accepted by God the Father in Jesus? Do he still have an ear for me when I call on him? I say yeah..because 95% of the time when I call on him, he hear me, then answer me speedily. Sister’s and brothers, I don’t hear voices or anything like that. It’s that, situations, things, and ideas that I’ve even thought about have been set in motion right before my eyes, immediately most of the time. That’s how I know he’s still accepting me. The Lord deals with people different. So…if he’s not dealing with you like he’s dealing with me, it doesn’t mean you’re not accepted by him, I’m just telling you some ways he deals with me. If he’s accepting me, I must be showing love towards mankind in general, whether a servant of God or not. Will I get it in return? I have and I have not. Hey, we have to take it all. With good judgement and certain control of some situations, we can.. remove ourselves from having to deal with certain people. Sometimes, it can become to much, then certain adjustments have to be made to keep us from offending God by retaliating. We can’t make any one treat us how we want to be treated. All we can do is hope that we’re treated descent or well. I know one thing; time, situations, and events will tell who is who, and what is what. If I wasn’t keeping his laws, statues, commandments, and judgements, I know for a fact he wouldn’t be hearing me like he do. Lately within the last 9 yrs, 95% of my thoughts have been established, immediately right before my eyes. So…I’m very careful on what I ask for, again, 95% of the time it’s out of necessity, most of the time it’s to Glorify the Father. I’ve had some personal desires I’ve ask for and he’s giving me them as well. I must be doing something right. As far as punishment, 98% of time he punishment me immediately. It’s almost like an instant whupping. I love him for that. I even asked him to judge me according to what I’m worth. Exact me for what my errors are worth. I don’t beg for mercy, I humble myself and take whatever he want to exact me. I let him decide whether he want to give me mercy or not, without me pouting and not wanting to suffer for my wrong. When I’m wrong or even stubborn sometimes and do something stupid. I take it and don’t try to run from him dealing with me. When I realized or find out that I’ve done, I immediately go before the Father in prayer and not putting anything on the back burner. I go to him saying, “I know that I’ve done wrong, I have no excuse, if it be thy will, forgive me, if not, I’m okay with it, I’m not angry or nothing, all your judgements are righteous.” You know.. some might find themselves saying to themselves something like, “I’ll deal with that later,” putting off acts of sin or offenses for later. Wrong move. That’s like creating more debt, more debt, and more debt and not paying any of it off, and not even making payments, sooner or later, your credit will be shot, and nobody will want to deal with you, or deal business with you. It’s the same with the Father and the Son, sooner or later, you’ll lose credit with them, and no matter what you come up with, they aint hearing it, unless you start and/or continue to seek and live righteous. Keep on messing around and you’ll be out there yelling help, and getting no answer. The only thang you’ll be getting is an echo of yourself, yelling, “Help…Help…” That’s a bad… state of condition, alone without spiritual armour and weapons. Did you notice I didn’t say physical weapons. What man think is strength, power and muscle for instance: money, guns, nuclear weapons, ect, that aint nothing. Where did that stuff come from? The earth, it’s all minerals, oils, ect. that will break down to nothing just as quick as they grabbed’em when it was.. nothing.
I mentioned earlier about obtaining knowledge, wisdom, and understanding concerning the ways of evil, along with the good. When we really open ourselves up, and humble ourselves before God, accepting all the wisdom, knowledge, and understanding that he wants us to know and live by, this is what’s gonna happen. Do you really want it? Read these scriptures below.
Ecclesiastes 1:17
17. And I gave my heart to know wisdom, and to know madness and folly: I perceived that this also is vexation of spirit.
When you give your heart(mind) over to wisdom and to know madness and folly(foolishness, sin, iniquity), it is vexation(irration or annoyance) of spirit(mind).
18. For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.
You will suffer, because of the ways and the selfishness of the people. We all have a certain degree of selfishness, yet we have to continuously grow from it. Day by day. We have to work at it, work at it, be considerate, considerate of one another. Some can get it going quick, some not, yet working, and working, we will start to have control of this selfish way of thinking and living. Do.. not give up. Please…., because I might have to lean on you. Will you be there and ready? Who’s willing to suffer for the well being of the creation of mankind? Who’s willing to be that example of hope for those who have lost hope? Who’s willing to suffer for their neighbor(any one), so that they’ll have a shoulder to lean on? We all have or will need a shoulder to lean on. Are we really our brother or sister’s keeper?
Until again,
Grace and Peace